My mom is having a spine surgery now. She barely cannot walk. She decided to have this surgery long time ago and regret for many times due to her worries about me, my dad, my grandparents, our home business, and house chores. She, again, made a decision when I am in a very difficult situation. She knew that I have had a hard time here, but due to her amnesia and health condition, she could not handle things well. I am worried about my mom’s surgery, but except for praying for her, nothing I can do now.
I felt helpless and hopeless until my friends comforted me and leveraged the connection for me. They recommended me to their school management team, provided me with information on renting a house, and suggested some interview strategies. I will have an interview tomorrow. Wish me best of luck. All I want is to change to another place get my internship done, pass the comp exam, and graduate on time.
Notes:
As a teacher, if kids feel tired or rest their hands and arms on the desks, we would ask, “Are you okay?” “Go wash your face.” Just now during the recess time, I felt stressed out and exhausted, I rested their hands and arms on the desks and started to have a short rest, one of my kids came to wake me up and check in on me 「老師，你還好嗎？」My reply was 「我沒事，只是很累。」Then, I realized that I can’t rest at my desk in the classroom. My kids would check on me : )
Also, When I covered the duty last week, one of my kids came to me and said 「老師，你什麼時候要教我們？ 我們會配合你，但是有些男生都不合作……。」「老師，我們知道你很努力，我們不會毀了你的一生……。」Eariler, one of my kids checked with me 「老師，你的錄影通過了嗎？」I was smiling when they concern about me. Kids, you are so SWEET : )
「老師旁邊的寶座」
前幾天班孩請假，另一個班孩A獲得特許坐我旁邊吃午餐，
我：「Ａ你今天為什麼坐這邊？」
A說：「老師，今天ＸＸＸ請假，所以我獲得允許坐你旁邊。」（開心貌）
One little thing that makes my day is that my kids came to me and surrounded around me all the time. During the UOI class, they are working on their formative assessment,
Ｅ開口問我，老師，我可以坐你旁邊嗎？
我：為什麼你不坐在自己的位子上？
Ｅ：因為比較舒服，而且老師，如果我不會還可以問你 （開心貌）
以前我的好時候，打死都不會想坐在老師旁邊，因為有種莫名的壓力，而且壓力很大，閃都來不及，我怎麼可能還自投羅網？現在班孩的反應讓我覺得我的師生關係很正向，也很開心孩子們願意接受我這個老師 ：）