Since I was struggling about renewing my contract or not, I have felt unstable and lack of sense of security. Also, I do feel unfair that I needed to do so many jobs, but people around me were so leisure and casual. Then, I guess after B was informed that I am going to take over the foreign teacher’s job in the kindergarten, he only assigned a task for me, writing the exam papers. I think that he was shocked that I deceided to become a homeroom instead of working as admin with him. I don’t usually make any trouble and get people uncomfortable, but I am still wondering that when we were so busy for the speech contest until 10:30 3 days in a row, why didn’t he say THANK YOU face to face? Also, why did he just wanna give me the “leftover” coffee? I think that he is a deligent worker with easy-going personality, but his thoughts are really hard to understand.

I just asked J to add friends on Line with me and got refused. However, he did tell me that “I heard that you want to teach more. Don’t worry about here.” Now, I feel that all things at this school is weired and inconsistent. B may feel that I snitched on him or complained about the heavy workloading. However, I did not do anything. I just listened to my heart that I don’t want to do admin and I don’t want to be someone’s assitant any more. I like teaching. I am a licensed teacher. When I looked back, I feel it’s not worthwhile to sub here and there, worked until 7:00pm, and got exhausted without normal life. I need work-life balance, seriously.

In addition, I’ll observe classes in the kindergarten tomorrow for the while morning. I have lots of free time under uncertainty. However, I think that I will teach in the Kindergarten since May 26 officially and move back to be a homeroom teacher for higher grades in August.