I had a meeting with both directors last Wednesday afternoon. Basically, it was set up for S to blame me. S blamed me for using the school resources like taking the school bus and having school lunch, but not making any contribution to the school. I ask for permission from the director of SAO and I pay for the school lunch every day. Everything results from I did not cover the duty for her and I ate school lunch. She took revenge by giving me the hard time like she hasn’t replied to my chat and ignored my message. (Well, ML told me that it is absolutely great to me because if S has not reply in the chat group, it is even better for me because R serves as a filter so that I have some protection. ) Moreover, she did not provide me with chances for observation in Chinese class and math class, and she refused my request for the teaching demo. She even asked me to make a timetable like an elementary pupil just because she thinks that I need to “help” in the PYP office. However, on my TCNJ document, there is no admin part at all. Therefore, apparently she is taking advantage of me.

In addition, she told my mentor that she is NOT my mentor, but on June 7, I received the school email saying that my mentors are A and B. She said that the other director informed me about this and the document from TCNJ states that. I totally had no idea where and what the document is and I asked her. She just avoid answering my question, and say that the director of academics said that I CAN do the duty. When I raised my concern about if anyone got hurt during my duty, who is going to take responsibility, she avoided it. (Director of SAO said that according to the MOE rule, I should not do the duty. Usually, if things happened in the past, the directors took responsibility. However, S has NO SHOULDER. She hides from it.)

After the Wednesday’s meeting, I cried terriblely because I felt that I was hurt. Last Thursday, S actively invited me for another meeting. She blamed me for not informing them I have to finish the recording of my teaching demo by September 30. I replied to her that the atmosphere of the meeting on Wednesday was so negative, how did I inform them of that? She comforted me and said that if she made me feel uncomfortable, she is sorry. I told her, ” You don’t have to… (because that was a heavy burden for me.)”

Yesterday, M informed us that his wife got COVID and he needs to be quarantined for 7 days. Due to this, he will be absent this whole week. I then asked how my teaching demo works this Friday. Is it ok for M to join via Zoom or other social media? R replied ok, no problem, but S ignores everything. Now I have reached out to people that I want to change schools for my internship because the school can’t offer me opportunities for observation and teaching. However, no further news for now. S asked me to cover M’s duties again. I had NO choice, so I relied ok and I think if things happened, it will be a great opportunity for the school to reflect. (ML told me that if something happened or people get hurt, all I can do is to show the evidence that S asked me to do the duty. She needs to be responsible.)

I called Grace for Teacher’s Day. We accidentally talked about my current situation. She gave me lots of encouragement. I finally told her thank-you and I love you in Chinese after 15 years. It was a breakthrough for me because I did not get used to it, and this cause the words heavy and even embressed to express. I received the firmest support from Grace during these 2 days. My old friends and I gathered together to have teacher’s venting. The coincidence was that J, S, and Grace have the same comment that S is a mental. All of them are supportive. I love all of them! I am a lucky girl that I am beloved and surrounded by these nice people.