I was told that I need to attend a Child Protection Workshop all day long today. However, for some reasons, they sent me back. They said that it was the decision from the management team…. Also, I checked with Silvia again and again for the teaching demo opportunity for G4 homeroom teacher. She seemed hesitated and kept it secret. I guessed that she will check with Shandi first for her willingness and I am her second choice. However, I wanna learn about teaching demo because sooner or later, I am going to face this challenge for job hunting. I am willing to take this chance to practice and equip me with the capacity. Honestly, I really wanna learn the teaching aspect, but not the admin. I think 5.5 years of suffering is enough! My ultimate goal is to become a licensed teacher and jump to teaching area ASAP.

Since they provide me a seat in the PYP office which is besides my old spot. I am worried that somebody is going to put a lot of chores on my plate. I am really reluctant to do this because I have experienced the struggle and that’s why I made up my mind to become a teacher!

Now I am sitting at my desk typing this partially because I have to pretend that I am “very busy”. Tiffany told me that if I help to organize stuff, someone is going to redo it again because she would like to control her own system. That’s why I said that I am willing to help, but under the circumstance, it seems I can do nothing. I think that all teachers are returning next week. I will spend my time with Sally and Mark, who are my mentors, and reduce my time in the office ASAP because I do feel stressful in here getting along with that key woman. 

Well, my short-term goal is to finish my internship here in I-Shou and hunt a teaching job ASAP. Therefore, I really don’t wanna “waste” my time on doing the chores I have experienced and would like to cast my energy and effort on teaching in the field of education. My focus should be on students and all the tasks are related to teaching. 

When I am sitting here typing my reflection, I saw the picture of Grace and me taken 11 years ago. I miss her. I have spent 9 years on this hill of I-Shou for my study and work. It seems like my life is deem to get related to I-Shou. In addition, I realized that Grace has witness my growth for 15 years since I was a college student and has seen me making my career change from an admin to a classroom teacher. I have a strong and complicated feeling when I think of this. Time is fleeing and it’s been 15 years.