On Monday, September 27, the social worker came to observe my class without notification in advance.

• First, she criticized me on my student record was too rough so that she could not understand  it thoroughly. I had stated on the document and explained in person that it was because I spent too much time on ice breaker activity in my first class, so I had limited observation on pupils.
• Second, the social worker asked me to request students write the letters in a super tidy way and correct them restrictedly to the extent of being fastidious. However, my kids just learned ABC. If they can write the letters so well that they did not have to come to my English learning support class.
• Third, one of my students was too shy to open her mouth to pronounce a word. The social worker told me that I should have told the kids, whoever pronounce in the lowest volume needs to come on the stage to read aloud to the whole class as the punitive consequence. If they are competent/confident enough, why did their homeroom teachers referred them to us?

• Fourth, when I attended the workshop, the workshop leader informed us about his suggested handout on letter sounds and related words for beginner learners. However, when I asked the social worker for the file, her reply was, “That version is NOT going to be appear on the monthly comprehensive exam, so all you have to teach is according to the version I gave you.” That is, A-apple, B-banana,C-coconut, D-dog, E-egg, F-fish, G-goat, H-hat, I-ink, J-juice, K-key, L-lion. My question is there is too rigid. I firmly believe that there should be multiple ways of connecting letters and its sounds. For example, A-ant, B-ball, C-cat, D-duck, E-elephant, F-frog, G-girl, H-hair, I-ice, J-jacket, K-king, L-lesson. No one can deny this fact. Why did the kids learn things appear on the exam only? It was too single-perspective. It is harmful!
• Last, the social worker shouted/yelled at the student loudly enough that one can heard it from the other end of the aisle just because he did not write his words tidy. I strongly agree that no matter what kids have done last semester, they all need a fresh start for this semester. Besides, it is a tiny mistake, and he can simply re-write it. It was not a serious, insurmountable challenge or unreversed misery. As adults, we should allow kids opportunities to make mistakes in order to learn, grow, and thrive, let along saying that they are students who need learning support. 

After this incident, I wondered that I am not eligible to be a good teacher. I doubted about myself. I was perplexed and frustrated. 

Thank you very much for those who helped me went through this process. You are unsung heroes. 

Few days ago, when I scanned through my Facebook, there is a picture popped up.

This seems God is hearing my prayer. He is showing the way and answering my questions.

I told my students that next week is the last week of my teaching for some reasons. They almost cried especially the naughty boys. They kept saying that they don’t want me to leave and kept asking about my family situation. One of the considerate kid asked, “ Teacher, when will you come back?” His words melted my heart. I asked their permission for taking a group picture next week and told them I really enjoy working with them. They are lovely. I think it is a proper decision for making the farewell official because their emotions were stronger than I thought even if the social worker blamed me for announcing this to my students. She thinks that she is the authority of providing with the news for the school, parents, and students.