Luckily I have only 1 class today. Due to the speech contest final round, I am exhausted. As I went home 9:30 pm and 10:30 pm seperately. I am really tired. I don’t wanna do anything, but REST. I have finished the translation, but I just don’t want to upload it. I would like to have some time slots and space to BREATH and just…REST.

By the way, Ella cheated in my class yesterday. I feel annoyed because I really don’t want any of my students to have negative records and be shouted. I don’t think shouting is a perper way to solve the problem….

After a few weeks of struggling, I finally signed the contract. In other words, I am going to stay here for another year. They told me I will be a homeroom teacher in higher grades, probably G5. Compared with doing the admin, I will take this challenge. The purpose that I pursued my teaching license and MEd in Elementary Education is to teach, but not do the admin. Although I heard many terrible stories and anecdotes about parents here are the ugly Kings and the Queens, I listen to my heart that I will be a TEACHER, not the main or an assistant definitely.

I don’t know if I can complete the contract or not, but it is really risky. I don’t want to be fined. The amount is 2.5 months of my full salary, way too much! Best luck to me!

A quick notes to myself-I feel even more stable then the days I was hesitating and struggling. Yesterday, I got left school around 9:30 pm, and today, it was just now, 10:30 pm. However, no complaints! I had Grace work until 12 midnight when I was a junior.

Today isthe day right before the speech contest final. However, people still wanted me to do extra work, like Cool English, material order, and some others. I am stressed out because I heard that the final was until 11 pm precious 2 years. As a host department, I have to stay for 3 nights in total and I hope I can skip the activity on May 6th.

Now I am subbing TOEFL class and students are asked to do Barron’s reading. Therefore, I have some free time here to type what I am thinking. I really don’t have a full clear picture of what I nned to do as a host section for the speech contest final, but I’ve tried my best.

I feel so weak and tried recently… but I decide to renew the contract with the school. I feel like I need to talk to people, but it is just my desire. I clearly knw that it will not help at all. After all, everyone has his/her live and every individual has dissferent thoughts. I just have to be my own and that’s it!

Since I don’t want to bother people, I decided to type my reflection here. After consideration and struggling, I decided to renew my contract with my current school. However, I am not sure if it is a wise decision or not. I miss everyone who has been helping me throughout this process of becoming a teacher.

Sally and Nina, thank you for your suggestions and patience for listening to me.

Craig, I am grateful and feel so touched that your support and our friendship across the distance.

Hsuan Hsuan, thank you for your support all along the way…

Grace, I miss you. After the battle of the speech contest, I will need to talk to you. Your voice and words make me feel stable.

Ming De, thank you for coming and asking me out for dinner. It’s been a while I dare not to do so.

Grandma, thank you for reminding me that I am a FULL-TIME LICENCED TEACHER.

I hope all of you are doing well and me, too.